My advice to my kids when it comes to expressing who they are has always been – use your hair! Dye it. Cut it. Style it. It’s only hair, it grows back. Have fun with it. Don’t get tattoos.

Now, before you think this is an anti-tattoo rant, put your mind at rest. It isn’t. I’ll be honest, for arts sake, I quite like them! My problem with them is the permanency. I look back on photos of myself even just a few years ago and often think – oh my, I’d never wear those clothes or choose those glasses these days! Glasses seem to date photos more than anything else. Things change. So, my reasoning is that if I feel like that about the glasses I wore 6 years ago, there’s no way I’m marking myself with something for the rest of my life.

This week I was completely surprised by something else to do with change. As I was setting up a new content hub for my songs on Unified Praise, I was given the option of setting up a blog post too. I used to dabble a bit in blogging and had wanted to start it back up again for a while, so thought why not? I’ve got some already written that can kickstart me off again, so had a read through them. The shocking thing was that I didn’t necessarily agree with what I’d written anymore! 

All sorts of things started going through my mind... was I wrong back then? Have I misled people? Have I drifted away from where I should be? On reflection, my answer to all of this was ‘no’. I don't think it was wrong, it just felt a bit... well, small.

It seems that the older I get, the more I talk with others, and the more I study the bible and connect with Jesus, I more I realise just how little I actually know! My life is not supposed to be about finding out all the correct answers and passing a test, but about journeying and discovering the heart of God as I walk with Him.

Yes, I think very differently now about some things. All the time, every day, is about discovering something new about connecting with God. Appreciating others. Exploring things I didn’t know and strengthening those I do.

So, maybe I need to see it not as having been wrong back then, but that where I am now I see a bigger, wider, more grace filled and loving picture of who God is and all the different ways in which we can worship Him. And my hope is that in a few years time when I come to read back over these newer posts that they too will seem small. That I’ll see an even greater difference in what I understand, because it will mean that I've continued to seek God’s divine revelation, that He in his great love and mercy revealed it and as a result I have continued to grow, learn and connect with our mysterious and majestic creator God. I never want to stop discovering Him, I never want to stop learning and I certainly don't want my vision of Him to remain the size that it is at this point in time. 

So, here's to being one who learns and grows, who experiments and explores and one who is open to discovering new things as the Spirit leads.