When I am broken (With me through it all)

This is a tough one.

Bodmin Road Church is a family – a close family. When one of us celebrates, the rest of us celebrate – when one of us is facing a difficult situation – we all want to be there to support.

2018 was a very difficult year for the church. One of our leaders, and a much loved member not just of our church community but the wider community, died following a battle with very aggressive brain tumours. As a church, we had pulled out all the stops to pray for healing – believing in a God who could do miracles. We encouraged each other to be full of faith and stood with the family as they held on to hope.

I remember the last time that I visited Andrew at home. As I walked out of the house – the words of the first verse and chorus pretty much landed straight off. I quickly noted them down in my phone, not really sure what I was going to do with them. I didn’t touch them again until months later – and in the two weeks between his death and the funeral sat down to finish the song.

When a situation like this happens in a church – there are a range of emotions / responses / reactions that so often don’t get talked about. I wanted to find a way of giving voice to some of these – allowing us to open up to recognising how we were reacting, and taking that journey together. We may all have questions, we may all struggle to understand why God can heal but doesn’t always, we may all know that there is a better place that exists beyond what we see – but it hurts when we lose someone we are close to. God longs that we would involve him in those questions and involve him in those uncertainties – because he can be relied on. The chorus says this:

“One thing I know is You are good
Your grace has always been enough
I will bring my cries before Your throne
Knowing You are near, I am not alone

Belongs to the album Though Seasons Will Change