This is a song that I wrote to affirm my faith and just declare what Jesus means to me. This year will be 40 years since I became a follower and still "My future, my destiny, belongs to You"
We sang the song Oceans in church, a few months after our daughter was stillborn. I used to love that song. I always longed to walk in faith wherever God would lead me. But now I found myself not being able to sing it. What if going wherever He leads would mean I lose another child? I suddenly realized I didn’t trust God anymore. I was shocked.
Some months later I went to a songwriters retreat. In a workshop the leader invited us to write down what bothers us and to give it over to God. After that we asked God what He wanted to show us. I ‘see’ a man on the water. The sea is calm and the sun breaks through, right above the man. We told each other what we received. Then we prayed again and I ‘heared’ a song line from the band Live: ‘Run to the water. I find you there’. I thought it was funny. I’ve always loved Live and God knows that of course. I didn’t know what to do with it, though. ‘Isn’t that man Jesus?’ someone said. I was startled and immediately thought of the song Oceans again. I realised Jesus was inviting me to walk on the water, in the light. I wrestled with what this means exactly. I listened to Oceans again and then the last line hits me: ‘in the presence of my Saviour’. That’s what someone said as well: ‘But Ineke, you don’t walk alone on that water. God is always there.’ It is true. If I honestly look back, I can’t recall a moment I was completely left alone. I was always in the presence of my Saviour. I kneeled down and told God that I don’t dare, but somewhere deep-down want to trust Him. I just didn’t know how. Then I described what I saw in this song. In the months following, I sang it again and again.
'He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”'
Inspired by Psalm 46:10 this song describes what that 'being still' looks like for me in every day life. It serves as an affirmation before God that, though I struggle with it, I will seek to be obedient. It also serves as a reminder to myself that not only is this something I should do, but that ultimately it is for my benefit.
I'm very grateful to Andy Biggs for giving his time to help improve the sound of the very rough recording I sent him. Both using his production skills to get the best out of the recording I sent, and adding in additional instrumentation to give it a richer overall sound.
A song for when we need to look at Jesus, lifting our eyes off what might distract and discourage and focus on our rock. Written as part of the 2025 Resound Worship 12 Song Challenge.
It is a comforting realization that God does not abandon us during our darkest hours. Instead, during our most painful trials, He is carrying us. This song is about trusting in God.